Legend has it that Marie Osmond once said that going from two kids to three kids was the most difficult transition, and adding any more after that just meant "one more potato in the oven." Now, I hate to say this because she is the patron saint of Mormonism*, but... the woman doesn't know what she's talking about.
Going from three kids to four kids is very hard**. I don't know how it's possible, since Calvin is only a couple months old, but four kids make 10 times more of a mess than three. And don't even get me started on the laundry situation. Then there is the
difficult impossible task of making sure you are doling out the right amount of attention to each child. I feel, in the words of Bilbo, like butter scraped over too much bread.
Now, to be fair to Ms. Osmond, I think the situation is made more difficult by the fact that Jay works 12-hour shifts, which means I am alone for dinnertime, AKA
"the witching hour." You moms know exactly what I'm talking about. But more importantly, there is Dexter. He is not yet two years old, and therefore demands a disproportionate amount of my time and attention. In general he has taken the addition of Calvin well (he doesn't try to poke Cal's eyes out or anything), but he does take his frustration out on me quite regularly. He has recently taken to screaming at me, hitting me, and trying to grab the bottle whenever I am feeding Calvin. It is quite frustrating. I have had to put Dex in "time out" in his crib at least once per day (because mama doesn't tolerate hitting, for any reason). But I hate the way I am feeling about him right now, because I know it's not his fault.
Now, I don't want any of you to be alarmed. I am really doing OK and taking each day - each hour, actually - as it comes. And I know it will get easier as both Dexter and Calvin become more and more independent. But for now... I am
worn out.
* No, Mormons don't really have patron saints. **this post is not intended to scare you, Brenda. I'm 100% sure that you will handle four kids with your usual grace & style**